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Di hari-hari yang aku berasa puas . Di hari-hari yang aku meneliti kekuatan luarbiasa, dalam Kalam-Nya

Surah Al-Baqarah; dari ayat-ayat-Nya yang penuh kekuatan . Dan, kepuasan

Bergantunglah kepada sejauh mana untuk manusia itu terlarut dalamnya

Yang aku dapatkan pada mulanya hanya dengan pencerapan kata hati . Lalu, terdorong merujuk kalam-kalam suci dan bait-bait arab yang berenergi!

Lalu, jelas aku melihat yang darahnya begitu pekat mengalir dalam jiwaku . Darah yang sudah terlarutkan jampi serapah kata-kata dalam ayat-ayat-Nya

Sehingga aku berasa puas . Dan, lupa akan dunia keliling . Lupa akan realiti dan hanya pejamkan sebelah mata untuk menikmati setiap nafas-nafas ketika itu

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Kepuasan di atas kepuasan . Di atas infaq dan pengamalan

1) Aku; jika benar-benar berinfaq kerana mengharap Redha-Nya, aku seperti tuan empunya harta sebegitu menjumlah

Yang bila sudah tiba masa lemahnya dan seluruh harta itu melenyap sekelip mata, aku masih lagi kekal berkekuatan luarbiasa!

2) Aku; seharusnya menyedari yang Syaitan selalu mengajar agar aku menakuti kemiskinan dan memaksakan kebakhilan.

3) Mulianya aku menjaharkan infaq-infaq itu, demi tauladan rakyat . Adakalanya, lebih mendekati kehambaan ketuhanan, apabila aku menyenyapkan sahaja

4) Dan, sesungguhnya . . . kemulian warga masakin itu, adalah pada nama bagusnya . Pada sejauh mana ia menjaga martabat hidup, walaupun kekurangan beras hidup

Tidak hina dengan meminta, dan mampu berdiri tegak lagak kaya!

5) Kemurahan dalam menghulurkan, adalah ubat ketenanga dan kepuasan diri aku! Ya, puas!


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Allah Maha Besar! Aku sudah hilang bicara dengan kalamNya . Malah, seasli bahasa azalinya, aku sudah lebih melarut

Hanya ini yang mampu meredakannya . Menghalang aku terus menghanyut kepuasan, dan hilang tak sedar diri ....

[265]
And the likeness of those who spend their substance seeking to please Allah and to strengthen their souls, is as a garden high and fertile: heavy rain falls on it but makes it yield a double increase of harvest, and if it receives not heavy rain, light moisture sufficeth it. Allah seeth well whatever ye do.

[266]
Does any of you wish that he should have a garden with date-palms and vines and streams flowing underneath and all kinds of fruit, while he is stricken with old age, and his children are not strong (enough to look after themselves)― that it should be caught in a whirlwind, with fire therein, and be burnt up? Thus doth Allah make clear to you (His) signs; that ye may consider.

[267]
O ye who believe! Give of the good things which ye have (honourably) earned, and of the fruits of the earth which We have produced for you, and do not even aim at getting anything which is bad in order, that out of it ye may give away something, when ye yourselves would not receive it except with closed eyes. And know that Allah is Free of all wants and Worthy of all praise.

[268]
The Satan threatens you with poverty and bids you to conduct unseemly. Allah promiseth you His forgiveness and bounties and Allah careth for all and He knoweth all things.

[269]
He granteth wisdom to whom He pleaseth; and he to whom wisdom is granted receiveth indeed a benefit overflowing; but none will grasp the message but men of understanding.

[270]
And whatever ye spend in charity or whatever vow you make, be sure Allah knows it all. But the wrong-doers have no helpers.

[271]
If ye disclose (acts of) charity even so it is well, but if ye conceal them, and make them reach those (really) in need that is best for you: it will remove from you some of your (stains of) evil. And Allah is well acquainted with what ye do.

[272]
It is not required of thee (O Messenger) to set them on the right path but Allah guides to the right path whom He pleaseth. Whatever of good ye give benefits your own souls and ye shall only do so seeking the "Face" of Allah. Whatever good ye give, shall be rendered back to you and ye shall not be dealt with unjustly.

[273]
(Charity is) for those in need, who, in Allah's cause, are restricted (from travel) and cannot move about in the land, seeking (for trade or work): the ignorant man thinks because of their modesty that they are free from want. Thou shalt know them by their (unfailing) mark: they beg not importunately from all and sundry. And whatever of good ye give, be assured Allah knoweth it well.

[274]
Those who (in charity) spend of their goods by night and by day, in secret, and in public, have their reward with their Lord: on them shall be no fear, nor shall they grieve.

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Seronok dan puas . Bila mencatatkan rasa hati, dan membuahkan puas dalam hati

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